I have a wide range of emotions from relief that they are okay to extreme sadness for the loss. I don't really know how to describe my thoughts at this point. It is a lot like a death. It is very permanent. It just can't be undone. I think the loss with hit me in a million different ways and it will be with me forever.
I can see God's hand all along the way. I see Him working and moving all through this. I think this will be an amazing part of His work in our hearts. We will know Him more because this happened and that is beautiful. I am sure that I will process this more in the days and weeks to come. I am a either numb or crying. I did get some sleep for the first time last night and I feel a little more normal, today.
Many of you have called or e-mailed me. My cell does not work so great out here in the country. Many of you have asked what you can do or what we need. Thank you for even asking. We need your prayers because this is hard. I need you to show me grace. I just can't even respond to your calls and e-mails at times. However, your comments, calls and e-mails mean so much to me. Please keep them coming and know that I love you even if I don't respond. I will need you to listen at some point. I have about enough emotional energy to do the minimum right now.
We will be down here through the weekend. We are taking a little down time today and going swimming. We are all very happy about that.
Thanks for loving me. It is a refection of our sweet Lord's face. I need that.